Becoming me is the intimate portrait of the changing relationship between the director and her first love. We follow Marian, born female, through all the doubts and fears of the dawning realization that Marian feels male. With the decision to become what he truly is, he might lose everything he has: his job, his family, his friends, his life.
Marian’s story is the story of the struggle to live in a body that is not owned, in a role that is not accepted, trapped in a traditional society where being different means not to belong.
The relationship between individuality and social behaviour defines our lives, and for the most part we are not even aware of it. And if we are not aware of it, how can we ever truly be ourselves? This film wants to ask, through the observation of Marian’s life and the environment he lives in, what it means to be a woman or a man in our society. And – maybe more simply – this movie is a portrait of Marian and his struggle to find himself.
So why do you want to become a man?
I don’t know if I actually will become a man. I’m scared.
I know, but why do you even think of becoming a man… I mean, you are going to start therapy tomorrow. There must be a reason!
Because for all my life I’ve felt like a man. I think about myself as a man. I behave as a man. In relation ships, I am a man…
And changing your body physically to match your ideal of a male body will make you more comfortable?
I want all the thinking and fussing over emotional stuff to stop. I just want to be able to decide for one thing or the other, and men are like that.
So, you think that becoming a man gives you more control over your life?
Yes. It’s the testosterone.
Yes. It gives you a clear head.
“This is you. You were my first. My first love, my first kiss, my first everything. The shape of your kisses is burnt upon my mouth and no matter how many women I love, it is your kiss I’ll never find on new lips.”
Martine De Biasi was born in Trentino, Italy, in 1981. After attending a scientific High School in Bolzano she enrolled into the “ZeLIG School for documentary and television”, attaining her degree in editing in 2004. She has worked in Bolzano and Munich as an editor for creative documentaries, including “Uno di Noi”, „Omas Salon“.
Since 2007 she works for television and radio, mainly for „Mediaart Production Coop“ in South Tyrol, which focuses on television programs with a strong cultural relevance. There she is the editor of „minet“ a program on minorities worldwide. In 2011 she has embarked on a filmmakers journey, starting to work on the long-term-observation “becoming me” her first love, a woman, who wants to become a man.
Martin Rattini (born 1975 in Bolzano/Southtyrol) graduated from the „Kolleg für Fotografie“ in Vienna in 1998 and achieved a diploma as cinematographer from ZeLIG Film-school in Bolzano in 2001. In the same year he co-founded Helios an agency for audiovisual communication and has since then been working as photographer and cinematographer/filmmaker shooting documentaries and commercials with an emphasis on social and environmental issues.
He was participant at RIFF- (Island) and Berlinale Talent Campus and also at the training initiative ESODOC. From the early beginning he is part of FAS (the Film Association of Southtyrol) and was board member from 2007 to 2014.
Together with his longstanding partners he recently founded Helios Sustainable Films which is co-/producing documentaries and feature films and offering services to foreign productions.
CINEMATOGRAPHY Martine De Biasi
ADDITIONAL CINEMATOGRAPHY Manuela Wilpernig, Martin Rattini
EDITING Cornelia Schöpf
EDITING ASSISTANT Sonja Müller
PRODUCTION ASSISTANT Moritz Bonatti
MUSIC Federico Campana
SOUND DESIGN Marco Ober
COLOR GRADING Gabriele Cipolla
GRAPHIC DESIGN Claudia Polizzi
PHOTO Manuela Tessaro
WEBPAGE Nela Märki
ARCHIVE FOOTAGE Marius De Biasi, Anna Tovazzi, Autonome Provinz Bozen-Südtirol, Amt für Film und Medien, “Bewegtes Bild”
TELECINE Daniel Mahlknecht, daPalmer Film
ADDITIONAL AUDIO FOOTAGE Moritz Bonatti, Martin Fliri, Cornelia Schöpf
SUPPORTED BY IDM Südtirol Alto Adige
IN COOPERATION WITH RAI Südtirol
Helios Sustainable Films is a film production company based in Bolzano – South Tyrol. The company is the film branch of Helios, a marketing and film company on track since 2001. Helios produces films ranging from documentaries to movies, that go beyond mere entertainment. Human, social, ecological and philosophical issues are always part of Helios’ films.
HELIOS Sustainable Films
Via Piani di Bolzano 17
I-39100 Bolzano | ITALY
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